Thirty-one days, thirty-one posts.
Showered and got dressed at four pm today. Why? Maybe because I wanted to wear my pajamas for bed again, and knew they needed to be washed after wearing them for eighteen hours straight. Maybe because I was tired of my hair looking ratty, and knew the only thing to fix it was a good shampoo, conditioner, and curly hair routine. Maybe because I knew that for the sake of my mental and physical health, I needed to go outside for at least a few minutes, and only "real" clothes would do.
These days seem topsy-turvy. I'm not sleeping well, which means I'm tired during the day. I don't seem to gather steam until almost lunch. I only manage to accomplish one or two adulting tasks before dinner, the simplest chores taking me twice as long.
It's occurred to me that having a hysterectomy is not unlike having a baby, having done both. The body is in healing mode, insides rearranging to inhabit newly available space. Days and nights are mixed up as meeting the needs of both baby and mother come first, all other tasks made subordinate.
Whatever the similarities, it doesn't change the fact that in two-and-a-half weeks, that four thirty alarm will ring again. It may be time to start inching back toward that schedule.
"The body is in healing mode..." - such a true statement. Sometimes our busy brains want to rush our bodies through the healing process.
ReplyDeleteIt is hard to stop and listen, when we are used to meeting the demands of work and family!
DeleteI think you are doing an excellent job at letting your body have the time and space to heal. I truly believe that the body lets the mind know when it's ready, though too often our schedules (jobs, family, obligations) chime in first. Taking the time to be outside, even for a change of scenery, can do wonders for our mental and physical states. Speedy recovery!
ReplyDeleteThank you! This has been an odd experience; I've never been on medical leave before, and it took a few days for the itch of checking my email to subside (not allowed to do so while on leave). It is so nice to see and be in the sun; my workdays had been dawn to dusk, as of late.
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