Fran Haley has prompted the writing circle with the idea
of "holy" this month. You can read her post, and the group's
I'm not sure when exactly it happened. After my first child? My second?
Whenever it happened...I surprised myself.
The Sign of the Cross is the tell of a Christian raised in the Roman Catholic Church. We dab our fingers in holy water and cross ourselves as we enter sanctuaries, making the Sign again and again throughout Mass, blessing ourselves as we exit. Beyond chapel walls, the Sign begins and ends prayer (most often at the dining table).
I wasn't familiar with the tradition of making the Sign in the presence of other spaces until high school. A friend, fellow Catholic with Latinx roots, urged me to cross myself as we passed churches and graveyards--to ward off evil and solicit blessings, she said. That habit followed me for many years, despite my gradual departure from the Church of my youth.
I was still a fairly regular attendee of Sunday Mass when it happened--the urge, and follow-through, to make the Sign of the Cross while driving past...a hospital.
Not just any hospital. The one where my children were born. Even more specifically, the hospital that bore witness to my less-than-ideal deliveries. The hospital where angels-on-earth saved my twenty-six-week premature firstborn, cared for me through a miscarriage, and safely delivered my son, saving my life in the process. The hospital that allowed me to ensure that another pregnancy wouldn't endanger my life again, to continue mothering my children.
The memories of giving birth in the presence of such care, compassion, and competence fill me with awe and reverence, not unlike entering a grand cathedral with a golden tabernacle.
Is it any wonder, then, that my hand goes to my forehead, heart, shoulders as I pass that building? I utter a silent prayer of gratitude for the caregivers within and the blessings they gave me on that hallowed ground.