Tuesday, February 21, 2017

Tuesday Slice: Acts of kindness

Last Friday night
I walked out to my car, still parked at work at 945p
Bent in pain, heat escaping from my eye sockets

I sat in my car for five long minutes
To make sure I could drive home
Deciding I could, but craving a burger

As I drove towards the golden arches
Exhausted from a week of pushing my physical limits
My muddled brain grew angry

Why do I have to take care of myself when I am at my lowest?
Why do I feel alone in this misery, with two others residing in my home?
Why do I have to be motherless, at a time when I need mothering?

I ate in stony silence as the TV blared
Medicated my cough and fever
Took a hot shower, fell into bed with instant, blessed sleep

This weekend, I did little but care for myself
Lots of rest, lots of meds, lots of liquids
The laundry my only chore

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Yesterday morning, I was handed a cup of chai tea, a gift for my throat
Expected a check at lunch, to be told it had been taken care of
My mother's earthly emissaries taking care of me, after all.

4 comments:

  1. I hear you. I had the flu last week. I took two days off but the rest of the week felt tired. Sometimes we have to stop and take care of ourselves.

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  2. There is pain in this post, then comfort. I'm glad that you felt your mother's love through the kindness of others. Thank you for sharing with this community.

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  3. Being sick is the worst. I wish you a speedy recovery and lots of rest and tea until you're feeling 100% again.

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  4. Your words put a lump in my throat. I felt your aloneness and then the small signs of connection and relief. Be well.

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