Our writing prompt for Spirit this month is a return to our One Little Word (OLW) chosen at the beginning of the year. Ruth asks us to reflect:
"Was it a good choice? Has it been helping shape our thoughts this year so far? Would we like to recalibrate, refocus, or even choose a new word?"
I chose "Results" as my OLW for 2021. In the linked Slice, I talked about repeating the same goals each year and never really reaching them. I thought I had been planning, but I had really just been wishing; I needed to map out discrete steps to take towards those goals, doable action plans. So I did just that--thought out the steps to take, gave myself a timeline for them, even visualized what each step would look like. The three areas I focused on were health (mainly weight loss), financial fitness, and decluttering. Here are the results so far:
Health--twenty pounds down, but stalled since April. Still using food as an emotional crutch/ reward.
Finances--overall, more in savings and a little less debt. Credit card balances haven't budged. Still haven't done the steps I said I would do to move forward.
Decluttering--let's just say there's been a few feeble attempts. Very feeble. Like, not even noticeable.
What I've learned (once again) in the last five months is that writing stuff down, even in SMART goal form, isn't the same as doing it. Yes, I revisit those goals each month. Yes, I block out time to work on them, and then ignore my own plans. Yes, I look at those deadlines as they zoom right on by.
When choosing my OLW for the year, I forgot to consider that "results" are not always positive.
"I have a hard time being accountable to myself." That's what I wrote back in January.
So the question is: do I hold on to that OLW, double down and try to work harder on acting out those steps I so carefully planned? Can I hold myself accountable in order to accomplish my goals? After some thought, and with summer just around the corner, I say yes--an answer accompanied by prayers for determination, focus...and maybe a kick in the seat of my pants from a guardian angel or two.